The End

04/02/2023 - New York City, NY

30 days and 30 long nights.

I have delayed this writing as much as I can in good conscience. The right words can’t be found. India has blown me away completely. There is an undeniable spirit that hides beneath the surface. You won’t find it in the all-inclusive resorts or in the party hostels. It reveals itself when you stand on the edge of sanity and peer into the darkness, hope, and the tragedy of life. It breaks all rules. What I have gained from this trip goes beyond simple explanation. It has worked its way into the very core of my being. It is a calm sense of knowingness that cannot be shaken. It is a warm and heavy voice deep in my chest that reminds me who I am. It is certain proof, in times of doubt, that I can do what I set my mind to. It is the sound and peaceful sleep from taking life into my own hands. It is Exhibit A. This was no idea of mine. I was called to it, with conviction, and I listened. The roof has been torn off. I now know what I’m capable of, and it is exactly what I believe I am capable of. This creative and spiritual endeavor will stand as a monumental victory in the milestones of my life. My return to New York has filled me with overwhelming feelings of gratitude and appreciation – for what I have done, where I am, and who I am with. This journey has shown me the light of an eternal and undying flame of creativity and love that I have within me. I have opened my eyes.

For those of you who were along for the ride: Thank you. If my writing has given you an ounce of joy, know that it has given me a life of meaning.

Clayton